An Imperial Decree

Sharla receives a very odd e-mail, which she almost deletes without reading. All her instincts cry out: it’s a scam, stupid, delete it! But her right index finger betrays her and she opens the message anyway.

Somewhere in the universe a switch changes from off to onor from no to yes.

The message is headed in bold face caps: August 7, 20–. The text is a simple question: Is this you?

Relays that were forged by beings long ago extinct start to click and hum.

Sharla feels the ground shift a hair under her feet and her nerves jangle like bells. The date cited in the message is her birthday.

A signal passes rapidly through the relays, through unimaginableairless spaces.

She finally turns off her computer and sits there in the semi-dark. The room around her seems to be charged with a special electricity.

In an office that is not really an office, one red light comes on and starts blinking at regular intervals.

Sharla lays down on her bed and picks up a book she has been reading, a Norwegian police procedural that someone had recommended, but the words dance around until she puts it down and closes her eyes.

A finger that is more like avery this wire reaches out and presses a button that is more like a flower.

Sharla opens her eyes, emerging slowly from a half-sleep to realize that her computer has restarted on its own. She gets up and walks towards it, feeling like she is still asleep but knowing that she isn’t. On her screen is the same message, but with a note indicating that it has been resent. The cursor blinks suggestively: Is this you?

Sharla works in an electronic store that sells high end computers, tablets and phones. She is constantly surprised by the range of customers, from hip-hop kids of all races, with hoodies, tats and earrings, to dark suited executive types, to balding geeks in their Spock tees and Vans, all staring up at huge screens with the same idiot devotion. On her break, she mindlessly opens her e-mail and finds the same message: Is this you? In the pocket of her beige sales slacks, her phone keeps vibrating.

Around a council table that is not really a table, the assembled beings must decide what to do about the current situation. They all agree that the process, however regrettable, cannot be stopped. The meeting adjourns.

Sharla finds her computer on again when she returns from work and is unable to turn it off. Even with the power cord pulled from the wall the screen remains lit with the same message: Is this you?

The same message is sent and repeatedly resent to a pre-selected group of people. At present 586 have answered YES and 701 have answered NO. Sharla and thousands of others have yet to answer. Those who have answered all have their devices returned to their control. Agents are dispatched to the homes of those who answered YES. These people are taken and placed in vehicles with no windows and driven to abandoned aircraft hangars in deserts around the world. Agents are also dispatched to those people who answered NO. They remain inside with the inhabitants, awaiting further directives. No agents are dispatched to those who have not answered.

Sharla is bored. Without the use of her computer, she feels cut off from reality. She picks up and throws her Norwegian police procedural at her computer, but it misses and strikes the wall behind it with a papery splat. Is this you? Is this you? Is this you?

The people who answered YES are taken from the hangars and marched blindfolded out into the lunar coolness of the desert night. After a hour of walking, they are forced onto their knees. The agents, following strict protocols, walk behind the kneeling people, who are crying and calling out for water. When an agent reaches the hundredth person, he leans down and whispers in its ear. The person then gets up and wanders off into the desert to almost certain death. The rest are marched back to the hangars. This ritual is repeated every two hours until all are gone. The hangars are then cleansed and abandoned.

Unable to sleep, Sharla goes into her tiny kitchen and roots around in a drawer until she finds what she is looking for. Then she walks back into her bedroom and approaches her computer. She swings the heavy claw hammer up and down repeatedly until her computer is smashed into hundreds of plastic, metal, and glass shards. Ignoring the angry knocks on her floor from her downstairs neighbor, she then smashes her phone to bits as well. Sweeping the shards into a large shopping bag, Sharla goes out to the dumpster and deposits the bag. Back inside, she pours herself a scotch and drinks it, then turns out the lights and falls into a peaceful, dreamless sleep.

Those who answered NO and their families are ‘wiped’ and sedated. When they wake up they have no memory of the agents and have lost only a nanosecond of time. But inside their heads a mechanism has been inserted that begins counting down from one million. When the mechanism reached zero, these persons will begin speaking a language they do not understand and which has not been spoken on Earth since just after the Second Ice Age. Eventually, they will either commit suicide or be institutionalized for the remainder of their lives.

Sharla buys a little blue spiral notebook and takes it everywhere she goes. She pays particular attention to people who are constantly checking their phones or tablets. She has no idea why she is doing this, but for whatever reason, it makes her feel calmer. For a time, she contemplates changing her name and ‘disappearing’, but finally decides that it would probably do no good.

The relays that were opened begin to close in descending order across infinite space and time. The red lights blink off. The council meets one final time and adjourns. All notes from the meetings are erased and each member is resigned, or perhaps relieved, in the knowledge that they will never be called on to serve again.

Trump Fatigue Syndrome

One year down and three(?) to go and we’re already exhausted with this idiot. But what more is there left to say about him? Yes, he’s a vulgar, cynical narcissist who thinks he’s the second coming of sliced bread. Yes, he’s an empty bag of self-help cliches merged with the classic con man’s instinct for the best way to sell snake oil to rubes. But he’s just the brute symbol of a national malaise that has all but destroyed this once hopeful experiment in democracy. The two party system is dead and the electoral college, instead of preventing the mob from electing a demagogue, has become the prime tool for gaming the system. Maybe democracy only works in small settings and simply implodes when stretched too far. After all, the Greek polis was a handful of wealthy educated citizens, the rest being slaves.

You Don’t Know What You’ve Got Til It’s Gone

Before I started hanging out in Andalusia, I used to spend about a month each year in Neuchatel, a beautiful 18th Century town in the French speaking part of Switzerland. One of my great pleasures was a weekly visit to the small shop of the great chocolatier Walder. Just the smell of chocolate of all sorts, including table sized squares of dark chocolate jeweled with almonds, would put me in a kind of ecstasy. Recently, some old friends of Jacqueline and mine from Neuchatel visited, bringing chocolate from Walder, housed in its’ iconic gold box, but also bringing us the sad news that Walder was going out of business. So this might be my last taste of yet another part of my past.

Weeping Willows 2

Lilith looked up at the trees in the distance, marveling at how they appeared to be a kind of frozen rain. What are those trees called again? In such circumstances it was permissible to inquire of strangers. She walked up to an elderly couple who were eating ice cream cones and smiled. They both smiled back and waited calmly if not entirely pleased to be interrupted while eating. “Excuse me, but do you happen to know the name of those trees over there?” Lilith pointed at the trees and smiled again. The woman squinted through her glasses, then looked at her companion with a puzzled face. The man finished his cone, wiped his mouth with a small paper napkin, carefully folded it and put it in his pocket before saying, “Of course, those are called…”

…and Lilith was surprised to find herself standing in front of an older couple she did not know. They seemed to be equally confused by her presence. Not knowing what else to do, she turned and walked away. As she waited at the taxibot stand, Lilith could just make out the couple still staring at her from the corner of her eyes. The next taxi pulled up and she got in and pressed the panel located on the back of the seat. After several seconds, the panel beeped and the cab started up and began following the GPS to her apartment and…

…she was sitting on her sofa in front of the wall screen, which was showing an old movie. The actors looked vaguely ridiculous in their outmoded uniforms, which were wrinkled and baggy. It was evening and she was hungry. She found her tablet and pressed the food icon. The screen prompted her to select “evening meal-Vegan.” While she waited for it to arrive, Lilith played a card game on her tablet and…

…she sat at her work station and yawned as she expertly touched the screen each time a red circle appeared. Her right hand hovered over the “delete” key, which she pressed a blue circle appeared. The work was very boring but so easy that she had plenty of time to chat with her friend on her headphone. Martha had a similar job at another site, so they carried on their dialog almost uninterrupted, except when one of the supervibots would pass over them. But their soft whirring motors always alerted her in time to stop speaking before it came into hearing and site range. Lilith hazily remembered something she had been told in formation about some person who said something about defensive measures always being a step behind reality. She must ask someone who said that and…

…she entered the assembly hall and took a seat near the back. The place was only half full, so she wondered if she had arrived too early. But soon the lights dimmed and soft music began to play from the wall speakers. The greenish mist rose slowly, and with it the faint odor of flowers. Lilith tried to keep her eyes open for a s long as she could, but soon the warmth spread out from the base of her spine and…

…there was a loud noise outside her door. Lilith tan up to it and turned on the scanner. The well-lit hallway seemed deserted at first, but on the second pass she saw a man dressed in white standing over a woman who appeared to be unconscious. The man seemed to sense someone watching him and turned his head in the direction of her door. Lilith quickly stepped away from the door, but not before she saw that the man had no eyes. This has nothing to do with me. Lilith went into the ______ room and…

…she was coming out of a viewing center. She looked up at the digital marquee that announced that today’s showing was a comedy starring Eddie Franz. She was far from a fan of this actor, finding him vulgar and tasteless, so it was doubly surprising that she had been there and yet couldn’t remember a thing about the film. I’m having blackouts again. She reached into her bag, pulled out a capsule and dry swallowed it. Almost immediately, Lilith felt the chemical move through her like a cool ointment. She didn’t even flinch when two empty cabs collided at the corner. Rather than violence, they made her think of two old friends smoking and sharing confidences. She smiled and…

…on the day her friend Martha disappeared Lilith was spending the weekend with her parents. Sitting on the screened porch as her mother stirred a huge pitcher of ice tea, she had the strangest feeling that she was acting in a play. Her mother’s white/blue hair gripped her small head like a helmet. Who is this old woman? “Where is my father?” Her mother stirred sugar into the pitcher. “Your father is dead, dear.” Lilith wanted to hit her mother. “I don’t want sugar!” Her mother turned away and went into the house and…

…Lilith looked up at the ceiling and sighed. Her analyst/counselor continued to check her messages on her phone. Outside the large plate-glass window an aero taxi flew by going backwards. That’s another sign that the universe is collapsing. Who said that? “Why aren’t we getting younger?” Her counselor looked up from her phone. “Did you say something?” When the bell sounded, the office door slid open and Lilith got up and…

…tried to remember an incident that once seemed so important but now seemed so trivial. Her phone hummed and she picked it up. A voice she almost recognized said, “Run away, now!” There was a pause followed by a fumbling sound. Another voice came on that said, “isn’t she such a silly! Wherever you ran to, wouldn’t it still be just here? The phone went dead and “Lilith sensed a headache coming on, so she went looking for those tasty pastilles and…

…hesitated to take her evening sleep aid. For some reason, Lilith wanted to remain awake. Am I waiting for somebody and if so, who would that be? No, she decided, she just curious to know what happened when she slept. Did the world disappear? Did it lose color? Am I a bad person? Lilith felt so stupid sometimes. The room was rotating slowly but gaining speed. She swallowed the pills with delicious pomegranate juice and…

…looked at the half-filled glass of dark red liquid. I don’t like this stuff, so why am I drinking it? She poured out the rest in the sink, then felt guilty for wasting food. The face of a young woman appeared in her mind and Lilith almost gasped. I know this woman, don’t I? She began to feel sleepy and…

…found herself standing in front of a large apartment building, looking up at the sixth floor. Something about it was familiar, although she also sure she had never been here before. People walking by looked at her briefly, then looked away. No one bothers you here, which is nice. A car pulled up and the passenger door swung open and…

…the room she was in had no windows. The furniture had the spare look of rentals. She felt a little feverish, but there was nothing to take for it. Music was playing, although she couldn’t see where it was coming from. I don’t like this music. It’s too sad and…

…the light above her head was blinding, but she found that she could not shut her eyes. A churning sound reminded her of her mother’s washing machine. I can’t remember my mother’s face and my father is dead. She sensed someone behind her and…

…weeping willows, I believe.” The old man smiled and she smiled back, although she had no idea what he was talking about and…

Who Am I?

What was that line from Talking Heads about having so many hairstyles I don’t know what I look like? I used to be so self-conscious about my looks, how ugly I looked in photos, that a bad one could leave me depressed for days. Now I find that I just don’t care anymore. As long as I don’t frighten children and animals, and maybe even if I do, the world keeps spinning, doesn’t it? When I had a dog, it received more praise than I ever did, which was fine with me, except that one time when an attractive young woman once ran over and exclaimed that she just loved my dog’s ass.